But one constant in my life is my passion for living, my passion for recovery, my passion for making my life and those around me better, more enriched. Words cannot really describe what I am feeling. All that is going through my head is all the cliche sayings I have learned at meetings. But now they ring true in my life, seriously.
I never thought I would be where I am today, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. I enjoy my own company, sometimes I enjoy my own company the most. Never thought I could feel that way.
For so long I hated being in my skin and in my brain. I had such a fucked up way of thinking. I know I will never be recovered. It's a daily process. Some days are wonderful and some not so wonderful. But I have to brush myself off and face the day. Face life. I was always running, in circles. I never knew what was wrong. It was always someone else, something else. I always thought happiness was such a far away concept. Now I realize that I have to create it.
Happiness is a process, an everyday job.
But that's the thrill of it.
Everyday is different.
All I know is that if I didn't have acceptance in my life, I wouldn't have this outlook.
Take a look at where your life is, you put yourself there. But you can change it in an instant, if you just change how you look at it. It is that simple, I promise.
I am living proof. <3
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